Hot n Cold...

...your in an your out, your up and your down, your wrong when its right, its black and its white.... I can go on..Haha, my fav song.

Obey when God speaks, Trust His character when He's silent.

Nways, people wonder where the heck I've been. I'll tell ya'll now, and I'll keep this short. I've finally gotten my offer letter from University of Otago and Sheffield early December after one heck of a long wait. Looking at the currency exchange and how much I can rob from my dad, Otago is the one, THE one. Simple eh? Pack your bags, pay the fees, agent settle your visa, farewell parties, get on the plane then leave?? I wish.

Before I could do all that, I've gotta do a medical check up. Its simple, u do urine test, blood test and chest x ray, and if ur never smoked like chimney and drink alcohol like water for 50 years, you dont have to sweat at all! Mickey mouse check up.

Walked in like a hero, 1st time doing a checkup, and I went alone. Horror of horrors.....

I failed my urine test, there's trace of blood and protein in my pee. Doc said my kidneys are failing. My liver function test failed, so doc said my liver is shutting down too, AND, my platelet count is low too. I failed all the test that I did. Bravo. If its HELP exam, i can study harder, driving test , I can practice... Blood test? I do nuts but pray, and wait and pray.

Btw, 2 weeks later after drawing blood out of my body for 4 times, that would be 16 pine of my blood?? I dunno, doc finally found out that my liver function test went back to normal, urine abit abnormal and platelet count still low. I ask him why, he answered : "What is wrong with you?". With the dumbest ever looking face I've ever seen. So even my earthly savior don't know whats wrong with me. 1st I'm dying next I'm alive but abnormal. Common, what is this? Dr. House the real game?

Aite, maybe this blog aint that short after all. So after another week of blood drawing and waiting for result (total 3 weeks), All test went back to normal except my blood, platelet. You wanna know whats the best part? I drank one bottle of chlorophyll, in tequila cups, neat shots 5 times a day, I drank bloody red slimy juice (Bit root+tomato+celery+lady's finger), and I drank 4 shots of PAPAYA leaf juice, NEAT. It tasted like crap. You don't wanna know the taste. ps: Girls, dont mind kissing me after all this??;) Okok, after drinking all that stuff, my platelet suppose to go up but it went down!

Sigh, so finally doc gave up on me. How anal you have to be for a doc to give up on you?? He wrote in my visa report that I'm abnormal and need to do bone marrow test in NZ to declare me fit. I asked him why I cant do here in Malaysia? He said "I dunno, get out, times up, next patient is waiting". By the way, I found out that he screw up my urine test earlier when I when for 2nd opinion test to declare nth wrong with my pee. Well, he being himself insist he's right and scolded me for consulting 2nd opinion. AHA! I smell sth fishy there. Why so scared when he's right? AND he told me "not to be scared and cause I might have ITP but don't look up the internet in case you freak out, its bad but its alright"... HUH? Smart dumb doc , visit him if you wanna feel alive. Don't if you've got brains.

Now the 4th week. I'm in SJMC. lining up with bunch on old ppl, to see the hematologist, blood specialist to find out what's wrong with me. There.. hmm....people with dialysis, people sleeping in the bed, on the wheelchair...All over 60. Im the only youngster there..*made me more depressed*... Long story short I did another blood test that cost me 20 times more expensive than in clinic. Oh yes,, 20 freaking times. No lie. Just to find out its not sufficient enough to find out whats wrong...and...

BONE MARROW ASPIRATION :)

Just a day ago the specialist said 'I shud be fine, no need bone marrow check'.. Now casually escort me down for bone marrow. I was freaked to death. From what is watch in Grey's and House, its gonna hurt. But I was wrong.. Sedation knocks me out, I was holding hands with a nurse and the procedure begins. He drilled a 15, 20 inch???? Needle up my spine and God knows what next. I woke up in the middle of procedure when doc had a lil complication. I can feel needles tickling my back bone near my butt, scolded the doc (I dunno why) and went back to sleep. The process was painless but the recovery rocks. I can even flex my butt and walked properly for days. So we had a penguin back home. Nways, result came out i have ITP. Don't ask me what it stands for...complicated. Fyi, normal person platelet count 150-400. My dad off the chart 400+, my friend 200-300, denggi patient >50. Mine, 87......

It meant NO REASON FOR PLATELET TO DROP, UNKNOWN WHEN IT HAPPENED, NOT SURE WHETHER IT'LL GO. Cool huh? Hot cold, in out, up down...Common, make up ur mind? Im grateful I'm alright. Its a test of faith. I prayed like crazy, my family too. Though I miss out Xmas and New Year, its worth it. So many people in church prayed for me. Even those I do not know. Even leaders who are so busy took their time and show concerned.

I'm touched. My family became closer. Now I know what Jesus means when He says He's our Rock. You can tell me you don't God. Wait till you struck with sth concerning your health. I'll see how you react. I was helpless but to wait and trust in God. He delivered me. All things happen to for our good. How is that? Now that I have this condition, I'm considered abnormal and my visa will be delayed, so I'll be leaving later than I expect. Thats more quality time with family! Haha, this incident had brought my family so much closer. And as bonus, I'm not going to NZ alone. Hehe, I've got a friend going there too! Ain't it cool? Just when I thought everything was not going my way.

High on sedation after the procedure.

Finally not so stone? Sedation is just cool!

The verdict, I cant play rough sports anymore, no bungee jumping to avoid bleeding, and blood test every 3 months. At least I'm not dying:) Praise God. He's THE man. thanks to all those who stick by and prayed for me in this tough tough month. Thanks to my family. Haha, where I accidentally spent a few thousand more just for this check up. I'm sure they don't mind ;P Its 3am. I cant sleep. Very excited that I'm flying off soon.